To The Limbo

the world is but a dream you see
that we sometimes escape to temporary tiny worlds of perfection, of delusions
mortal shelters for a slumber we can't wake from

-life is but an endless chase

to a dumb conclusion
the pathetic end - leaving nothing but names, fleshes and dusts

so come baby come with me
to the limbo we'll be
we'll be silly, we'll be merry
we'll live forever, for eternity

there everything you see is but perfection
there you can dismiss all delusions

so come baby come with me
to the limbo we'll be.

Tribute to "Inception" by Christopher Nolan

Servitude of Destruction

we are none but slaves
in a servitude of a delusion
of lusts and worldly confusions
we are none but dream chasers
in and endless race of materialization
of greed and secularization

to a misled path
an absolute destruction
of mind, body and soul.

Chicken Shit

siapa kata kita benar
bila kita selindung dalam gebar
siapa kata kita berani
kalau kita tidak benar
siapa kita cakap besar
kalau hati bagai selumbar
siapa benar siapa salah
semua pun bullshit lah
chicken shit
you know chicken shit

Ugly

carilah syurga
di perut dunia
nanti biar muntah bersama
segala isi dan helahnya

Warna.

Warna itu bagiku
hanya sekadar garisan
pada raut wajah
yang sirna cerita
tapi bawa seribu makna
beri aku
masa dan ketika
biar hilang separuh jiwa.

The Burdened

Dear world
trust me these words are bold
and these words I can't hold
how I wish I can turn everything left unfold

Dear, I gotta go
nothing matters, today or tomorrow
I know it's hurt to forgo
this heavenly venom I borrow

Leave me, forget me.
Love me, loath me.
Hold me, bury me.


*Nothing to do with real events*

*Title tribute to Takeharu Ishimoto*

I Wanna

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna get the hell out of here
To the land of nowhere of the make believe
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna be free and empty
anywhere, anywhere, take me away
to the sky, to the moon, to the stars
to the deepest corner of your thoughts
to the filthiest depth of your secrets
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna caress you
take you away where no eyes can prey
forget everything, forget the world
I need you to be here with me,
frozen in time, high in the sublime

Garisan Abstrak

sendiri aku di ruang ini
mencari logik dan alasan
keliru tak berperasaan
untuk aku, begini

ingin ku cari
apa makna dibalik senyum
asyik dikuntum
walau buta apa terpateri

aku ingin erti
berlari kala senja
sembunyi bawah pelangi
lupa dan lupa segalanya

aku kadang benci
menjadi pacal dunia
mencari bayang sorga
esok lusa dan lagi


*Title tribute to Bin Jidan

Nigh

Nigh, nigh, nigh

neither millis nor nanos permitted

nigh, nigh, nigh

late may I might as well I be ousted

nigh, nigh, nigh

it shall not wait, I shall not plead

nigh, nigh, nigh

it shall not regret, I shall not fret

nigh, nigh, nigh

time please do halt, I do worry

nigh, nigh, nigh

I'll do the part, I won't be sorry

nigh, nigh, nigh

and thou and only thee knew

no fuss no frets

for this one never I blew.

Fallen Leaves, Fallen Leaves

Fallen leaves, fallen leaves
why so warm
when you wither?
Dead people, dead people
why so cold
when you wither?
Morning sun, morning sun
why do you smile
when you blaze?
Angry man, angry man
why do you frown
when you blaze?

Heartless

walau sedetik

bersinarlah

kerana dia tak punya hati

kerana dia tak mengerti

kerana dia iri

kita yang tertunggu

kita yang asyik termangu

dibuai mimpi dibawa bayu

walhal hakikat itu satu

kita tidak tahu

apa yang berlaku

bila esok ketemu

Kabus Ribut

langit merah bawa kabus dan ribut

jiwaku kacau, mataku kelam, hatiku kabut

aku rindu untuk hanyut

dalam gelora aku terpaut

hati tak kenal takut

*Title tribute to Butterfingers*

Langit

langit biru

tidak tahu berlagu

tapi

tetap ku tunggu

kerana katanya

senja merah

bakal membawa berita

Coma and Only

For heaven's sake I know surely
these unending thoughts match that of thee
either none or infinity
beyond or within sanity
concluding this complexity
Faces, they disguise too perfectly
thoughts, into corners they hid discreetly
peeking, stalking beneath uncertainty
through spoken words blurted unwittingly
really, ask me, choke me
none I wish but be alive shall thee
be merry, more than ever could any
if not then it shall be me not thee
away and away that's where I shall be.

Copyright Nerojei 2010

Beauty Ugly

Oh, how wonderful

everything falling

like tiles of dominoes

A weak, little push

do it right

do it right

do it right!

or

do it wrong

do it wrong...

or

unintentionally

and

see?

how the beauty ugly

bloom and unleash!

Word Play

Kepala punya otak

otak punya fikiran

fikiran punya akal

tapi

mana letaknya hati?

mana letaknya naluri?

mana letaknya identiti?

beza

antara rasa dan rasional

antara betul dan bebal

sungguh

aku keliru

ikut kepala ikut nafsu

ikut hati kata tahu

mana satu kau mahu?

keruh dan jernih

mudah dan jerih

mana yang kau pilih?

Subtlety

Kept it inside

so it won't hurt

bitterly embrace the irony

that it did hurt

subtlety

to what end

I wish it had been clearer

and I was a little sure

maybe

it will be easier

I could not fucking care less

when I don't.

Transcendence

"Here I stood with no purposes

waiting for nothing

but nothing

I saw not even almost,

if not everything."

"But what does it take

to see beyond this

tainted I was

tainted I am

how can there be tomorrow

without yesterday?"

"Purpose,

grant me purpose

but why?
a thirst to quench

a reason for being."

Nerojei

I am
an awkward cast
of a redundant play
a failure
of expressions
a figure
outside of a photograph
a man
of a faint smile

I write
to express
not to impress
a note
for me to remember
a reminder
so I won't forget
a will
as a reminder

Rot my body
perish my soul
but this wish I insist
these words persist

Undefined

Ask me why
I wouldn't know the answer
Ask me what
I don't have the answer
Ask me when
Time took the answer

I did because I did
Like a dead moth
Like a morbid crow

A complexity
so massive, enigmatic
yet alluring
drifted and lost
yet so sincere it felt

Thanks for the colours.